ok, sure, not alot of people my friend on here and i haven't gotten on her much, but yeah hehehehehe. i do want to post one in randomness anyway

why Isolation? lets say that i had alot going on and laot of insecurities that make me want to be isolated. I've lost so many close ones that usually make me feel better when i feel like this. i may loose another close one to me if i keep my insecurities and my self centered mind in tact with me.. i hate myself for being both of these things and feeling sorry for myself.. it might be because most close ones to me aren't being happy and when i try to make them feel better, nothing happens.. also, most people re ignoring me now -.-'''

i know, you all are thinking, how can they? you there! your are a living being thats standing right there and talking!

well.. when i speak and try to talk, they never hear me. i can can talk to almost yelling and they won't hear me, its like i'm invisable... even my friends can't hear me...

oh yeah! i've realised... i may need anti-depressants now... lets say i did something bad and my parents caught me and yeah.. and others found out too.. sooo not the best of moods at the moment.. and i recently found out that one of my good friends isn't that happy, even with my attempts to do so.. that seems to happen alot hehehe. buuut yeah.. i understand if one person doens't want to keep in contact with me anymore... but hopefully he will.. if not.. thats ok, i would understand... so yeah